Tears

Tears…

I feel the need to make a brief apology; I cried big juicy carebear tears last night. Not just that, I logged off in a moment of rage and ended up playing Dragons Age instead.

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For the last few months the little spare time I had I have been working hard on doing well at the Bastards to prove I am worthy of their ranks (hence the little CDM action).

I have started to attach to much value to my statistics on the killboard and have lost many stupid losses in doing so. Not wanting to lose ships has made me make decisions like not firing back and hoping to dock in time, jumping around in expensive ships without a scout and generally just being shit.

Anyways I figured I should lighten the fuck up and have fun again and purchased a few more Ishkurs (as I do like flying them a fair bit) fitted them with some nice gear and then lost them all. With my stats in ruins I figured I’d best go back to tech 1’s and whore some killmails until nobody notices I am shite (yes with an e at the end).

So after

losing another Ishkur

for no good reason (other than laziness) I jumped into a drake to pew pew some stuff around Evati. With various Bastards in the system and adjacent systems I felt comfortable in attacking a Vaga at a station.

I am on vent but rarely use the mic when the wife is in the same room to prevent being ridiculed and taking wife-aggro. So my call for help came in desperation and a little late when I realized I could not tank station guns and a T2 cruiser (yes I am a n00b).

The Bastards where too spread out to support me in time and I popped again. I mustered a quick GF in local to show my respects and then cntrl-q’ed without saying anything to my corp-mates.

The funny thing is I told myself earlier this week to lighten up and have fun again and after meeting Sassy B and duelling him in a fight heavily swung in

my favour

I lolled out loud at his cargo. After trading him back his loot (thank you Mynxee for teaching me this noble practice) I decided I should have some random trade goods in my hold for peeps to laugh at when they pop me.

The Drake I flew when theVagabond popped me in Evati was on its last run to collect some funny stuff to have in my hold when I popped.

I didn’t think it was funny …

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HTFU is what sprung to mind, and reading Helicity's class post about carebears etc

on the bus today made me realise how I have been sucked in and forgot to have fun.

Pixels in space...just pixels....

Woosah, woosah...

Watch this space...